I am just dropping by tonight because I’m still quite disorganised and not feeling too great. I got released without my important things and medication (anti depressants). I ordered some more from the pharmacy but they weren’t set to arrive until Thursday (tomorrow). I’m hoping that my important things turn up in the post tomorrow as I was told they were on their way to the post room on Tuesday and would probably go out Wednesday. I’m hoping that by the end of the day I have most of my stuff back and medication sorted. I’m starting to feel quite down. so I know my body is missing my medication now. Hopefully, in a few days, I’ll be back in a more cheerful state.
I don’t feel settled yet and it doesn’t help when half of your things are in another part of the country (or maybe travelling down the country as we speak via currier). I’ll feel more settled once I know that all my property which is either important or expensive is back with me. I am trying to think that they will all be here by the end of the week and things will be okay. Nothing is going to get lost because I believe that it will all get to me tomorrow. I’m trying to change my luck, therefore I have to think positively so then it manifests and nothing goes wrong.
I have been quite busy all day but I did catch a clip of today’s loose women. I don’t think they behaved like responsible grown up women and it wasn’t at all comfortable to watch. I know for a fact that loose women is recorded in advance. It doesn’t go out live, therefore they could have cut that scene. We had a chance to go to watch it being filmed as part of the audience during our media production course. It’s not as live as they make out and that didn’t have to be aired.
I am well aware that there is a lot of bitching between celebrities and others involved in the media. But, does it really have to be that way? Why can’t we all just live in peace. I know the industry is competitive and real friends in the media are hard to find because of that aspect. Life screws us all. Do we really have to make it ten times worse by laying into each other? As human beings, we should be coming together to support one another, not pulling each other apart. If you want to really see a portrayal of the media industry, then you should watch Press starting on BBC 1 in September 2018. As far as the trailers I’ve seen about it, this programme is based on true aspects of the modern news room. The ruthlessness, undercutting to get the best story that goes on are things I really don’t like about the industry.
However, this is the reality of a lot of media related careers. Bitching and backstabbing come hand in hand. If you want to survive and thrive in that kind of career, then you have to become very thick skinned and absolutely ruthless. I was young and naïve when I started. I’ve had to learn the hard way, but it’s made me what I need to be in order to survive in that cut throat industry. The ability to not care what others think about you and not be affected by others opinions is a hard skill to master at first, especially when you’re young and vulnerable. I now don’t care what anyone thinks of me. I get on with my freelance work, blog and daily life without caring what the outside world thinks of me. They don’t know me personally, therefore their opinions and assumptions mean absolutely nothing. At the end of the day you have to learn to love yourself otherwise you won’t ever succeed. Your worth is not decided by others. You must decide that you are worthy of a great life and firmly believe that regardless of other people’s opinions.