Others talk about stress but they have absolutely no idea what it actually is or how stressful it is to be different. It’s like being in a combat zone but not a straight forward one. You’re constantly dealing with other people’s judgments from all over the place as well as officials giving their opinions on aspects of your disability. It’s horrible. I won’t get over it that quickly because it’s ripped me apart. I’ve got punished for kicking back at them but no one is going to not rise to constant crap by the authorities. If you’ve had it since you were young then it becomes too much.
I have done a lot of things but I have never had official employment because no one thinks I’m worth paying due to having a disability. I can see why people are quite reluctant to be open about their diagnosis because no one takes you seriously unless they want to punish you for kicking back at the way you’ve been treated. I’ve spent my life being invisible and people using me for what they can get out of me. I’m a person underneath my disability and I can’t be retrospectively not open about it because it’s common knowledge now. I won’t ever be good enough for some people because of my label. It has put me under constant stress and now it’s taking it’s toll on me.