I’m worried because I feel something.

I am worried that I’m going to find out things that will make me unsettled again. I am the kind of person who likes to know everything about whatever is going on, but at the same time I’m scared about what will come out when it comes to the finer details. I have an intuitive sense thing going on tonight which is making me feel like I am going to find out something that is going to throw me really badly. I don’t know what it is but I have that feeling. I’m not anxious so it’s not that.

As much as I want to tie up the loose ends of things that have happened over time, I am afraid of what might come out. The truth could be so much worse than I ever imagined about things and other people. I don’t want to believe any of the awful things that may come out. But, in another way, I am pretty sure that the reality around me is going to uncover unsavoury truths about others that surround me or things I’ve been involved in. I’m just wanting a peaceful life. I don’t want any issues from external sources. I’m keeping myself to myself but sometimes just by being in the wrong place at the wrong time is just enough to get things directed my way. I can’t be any more careful than I already am being right now. I’m extremely afraid of what I am feeling intuitively. I just don’t want any nasty surprises right now or to find out anything that totally shocks me because I just can’t process it at this moment in time without it having a major impact on my wellbeing. 

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