I made an effort to get up earlier than normal (well before the afternoon anyway). I just don’t care about anything today. I barely want to even eat. I just want to sleep and be on my own all day. I’ve been out to get a few things earlier before it started raining. I’ve still… Read More I just don’t care anymore.
I can’t sleep right now. I feel exhausted but I’m too restless. I keep having dreams due to my past. Guilt is consuming me far too much. Other dreams are parts of my past technically haunting me. I don’t want that to be a regular experience because I don’t get no proper sleep. I’m constantly… Read More I feel guilty so much at the moment.
I know that going out and doing things is what people consider normal life. I go out but I don’t feel comfortable with socialising after things that have happened in my life. That is my personal choice. I am myself and I can’t be anyone that others want me to be. I can’t enjoy going… Read More I am satisfied with my life right now.
I don’t want to go into too much information here but my monthly is three days late. I have an app on my iPhone that tracks them. It has successfully predicted the precise day I started my monthly for as long as I’ve owned this phone. I am bloated which is what normally happens before… Read More Hormones can be really irritating.
I want to be brutal here because it is the only way that changes happen. I’m sure that many people have read what is happening in our system. That is basically just a form of entertainment via the news sources for most people who haven’t been involved in the system; for example, social services, criminal… Read More In a system full of corruption, those that stand by and watch are just as bad.
The last few days have been extremely hot. I’m far too pale for this type of weather but luckily I never got burnt during this heatwave. I do have sore skin so it may not have come out yet. I have found it more sweaty than hot. The humidity is the part I find unpleasant.… Read More Bank holiday officially over. Back to my normal routine.
I get told regularly that I probably should keep stuff off the blog. In example, what is going to be on in regards to the application to delete the unpaid work requirement which probation had submitted but the court rejected (despite medical evidence being submitted). I won’t shut up because it isn’t right. I am… Read More I refuse to keep quiet.
I am not ablest in any shape or form. This view is a decision I’ve made from personal experience. I have nothing against Autism or other Autistics. I would like a cure for Autism because this would help me have a life that means something. The life I would have had if it hadn’t been… Read More I am for an Autism cure, that doesn’t mean I’m ablest.
I have stayed in all day. I needed me time so I didn’t go out for even a walk. I’ve finally managed to straighten my hair after days of putting it off. I also painted my nails. I’m watching Netflix but I am heading to do some housework soon. I left that task until last… Read More Having a quiet day for me time 🙂
I feel sick. I’m still awake at stupid hour watching Netflix. I overate today attempting to stick to a diet. I seem to eat more when I’m meant to be in on a diet. I’m really awful at trying to lose weight. I can do it by accident but if I’m trying I normally gain… Read More Awake at a stupid hour & stressful system.